Stench of Beer

Tonight, my brother came home drunk, no, I’ll correct that: he was brought home drunk. He was very drunk and the stench of beer coming from his mouth was more than enough to make my stomach churn and make me vomit myself. (For the record, it was his first time; Papa said it certainly won’t be his last.)

Drinking alcohol, to the point of drowning yourself in it, is the last thing that I would ever do in my whole life. I swear.

I love being in control. Well, at least in control of some things that I know I could. Achieving awards, good grades, passing my favorite subjects with high marks, even failing some subjects I’m growing tired of pondering about, all those things I could control; and I love the feeling of being in control of them. I love the feeling of being a puppet master. Moreover, if given the chance, I would definitely love to be in control of my feelings, not only would it result to good decision making, it would also lessen the pain I have to bear.

Going back to being drunk, why did I swear that I would never do that? Three reasons.

First, as I said I love to be in control. When you’re drunk, you lose all control, you find it hard to stand, you vomit endlessly, you talk garbage or you tell things which you are not supposed to share with anyone (which could totally mess up your life) and you do weird things which you normally would not (or never) do. Second, you become a burden to the people you live with, they have to follow after you to clean up your mess and to make it sure that you’re not putting yourself in any danger (thus, I think it’s okay to get drunk if your living alone, such that whatever happens to you will be your own fault). And lastly, the stench of beer sucks, most especially the stench of vomited beer. It totally sucks. (Sorry for the word but I don’t have any other adjective to describe the smell of beer clinging to my nose).

Anyway, moral lesson here is: please be careful not to get drunk. You could drink all the beer you want, you could drown yourself in it, but never let it take over you. You, a human being complete with a functional brain, should, moreover must, be the one controlling that smelly liquid, not you being the controlled one. Maybe, getting drunk once is forgivable, twice is tolerable, but thrice, four times, even five? That’s stupid (to the nth level). Completely unforgivable.

You can’t let that smelly liquid take over your life. If you think about it, how could you allow that liquid dictate your actions? Thoroughly a dim-witted person’s thing to do.

My brother really became a bother to our household tonight. Aside from thrashing vomit around the place, he reeks of beer. As for me, I’ll never do that. I’ll never succumb to that smelly liquid. I never will reek of the stench of beer.

The Crush List

Okay, I’m flipping out. I’m totally flipping out!

Hear me?

But then, why I am flipping out, one might ask.

Simple. I have read again another book about a certain love story where girl-gets-perfect-soulmate and I’m flipping out. Ridiculous, huh?

It’s just not fair. It’s just not very fair! Hence, it is soooo unfair for female protagonists to end up with the one they love and like and be happy about it for, like, forever. Why do they have to be happy? Why? Plus why does it have to be forever?

Heck, I’m whining about a book. Again. *sigh*

I’m a teen, an 18-year old at that. And I don’t have a life. Ugh! (not that I wanted to be involved or anything now, but I would looovee it if by some miracle Kim Na Gil, Lee Seung Hyo, Youngwoong Jaejoong or most especially Jun Matsumoto finally realizes that I’m the woman of their dreams. *wink wink*)

Oh well, I do too, in a way, I realize.

I have a hundreds of crushes, most of them celebs and book/movie/anime characters, and am now obsessing over an almost 30-year old Korean actor (who is really hot! And when I say HOT! With an exclamation point, I mean HOT! With an exclamation point and is in caps lock at that. *drools*)

Picture how I practically am drooling just thinking about him? Major yuck, huh?

Anyhoo, what I am saying is that why is it that life doesn’t work the way it does in books? Why does life have to be a major pain? Especially when it comes to me who’s looking for her akai ito?

Why can’t I have a more adventurous, comedic love life? Aaahh! The dreams of a writer. Dreams of finding the perfect one only a written work of art from an author’s heart could only produce.

I like those guys above because they all played Mr. Perfect in some of their movies and they just fit the part perfectly that it’s a shame not to consider that they might, slight chance that might may be but still might, be exactly the same way in real life.

I wish.

Aaargghhh. I should stop reading books and watching movies or anime. They’re corrupting my already deranged imagination. Deranged from making up what Mr. Soulmate should be like. Plus why do I have to be a writer myself? It’s making me insane! Nuts! Looney! A deranged, looney-balooney, nutcase writer. Aaaaaaggghhhh!

I’ll post my crushes (the celeb and anime ones) pics here. In my whole eighteen years, one hundred three days, fifteen hours and forty minutes of living. (let’s not count the seconds.)

The Crush List

Dennis of Ghost Fighter

He’s my first ever crush. I maybe 6 or 7 that time. And I really like him. His ability and his looks are something. *laughs*

Inuyasha of Inuyasha

He’s a grade 5 crush. It’s the coolest anime that time and I’m so into it. I really love him and Kagome’s love-hate relationship. I’m so addicted to it; I had posters of the anime covering my wall. J

Naruto Uzumaki of Naruto

Everyone loves his personality, his principle, and his cat-like looks (I think, it’s cat-like). He’s cute, man! =)) I’m in highschool then, he’s my first crush in Naruto.

Sasuke Uchiha of Naruto

He’s brooding and dark aura makes me like him. He’s cool. I first hate him though, but, oh well, nothing vould make you really hate Sasuke forever, okay?

Neji Hyuuga of Naruto

He’s also cool. My third crush. I also hated his guts especially since he taunts Naruto’s abilities, but I came to love him after the Sasuke kidnapping incident, where he fought with the Spider guy. I hate that guy for hurting my Neji. (Heh-heh-heh. XP)

Rei Kon of Bey Blade

I like him. He is cute, okay?

Lee Syaoran of Cardcaptor Sakura

His character really is the perfect boy. He’s just every Grade school-ers dream boy. J

Tamaki Ricard de Grandtaine of Ouran High School Host Club

He’s the “mother” of the host club. He’s stupid, funny, and dense but he’s sweet.

Natsume Hyuuga of Gakuen Alice

He is also a brooding type. He is a smug, shown to think highly of himself, but caring deep down type of boy. I also love the way he and Mikan’s love story enfolds.

Jun Matsomoto of Arashi (as Shin Sawada of Gokusen (and anywhere else))

I love the character he played in Gokusen. Then I love him as an Arashi member. In Gokusen he’s cool, distant, the brooding type yet lovable. *sigh*(Waaah! I’m hyperventilating. *grins*) I never missed an episode of Gokusen because of him, well actually I did once and I cried my eyes out until I’ve seen the ep. in Youtube. XD

And darn it. I love his group Arashi as well. :D

Rain as Justin of Full House (and as a hot dancer)

He’s a good actor, a hot, sexy, talented dancer, and everyone loves him. And so do I. J

On Ju Wan as Il Jeong of My Mighty Princess

He looks a lot like Rain. But different personalities (the way I see it). And the way he plays the male protagonist/antagonist, best friend and secretly crushing on the lead character is astounding. The last battle scene puts me to tears for about a month and every time I remember it. J

Lee Seung Hyo as Alcheon of Queen Seon Deok

I’m one of those who love Queen SD. Moreover, not only do I love the story but I love this guy as well. His character doesn’t stand out. He’s a Royal Palace Guard who has his principles intact whatever happens. Plus he’s cute. (=P) Anyhoo, I researched about him after falling for him as Alcheon and though he’s not that famous, I like him still.

Kim Nam Gil as Bidam of Queen Seon Deok

The guy I’m currently drooling over. He’s cute! Also I love his character as Bidam, mysterious and daunting at times. He makes me think that he’s an MPD case (hehe) but I love it all the same. He’s bad, and then he’s good. He smiles when in bad mood and his smile is something I would love to stare at and drool over for the rest of my life. (HAHA!) He really has this scary yet cute grin. I also love his moves in Queen SD.

Youngwoong Jaejoong of DBSK

A singer, dancer and actor, all in one. Plus he’s pretty, I mean, handsome. DBSK is a Korean boy band filled with 5 yummy, sexy, hot, talented boys who's got the whole of Asian girls screaming their heads off (no kidding). And, I think, JJ happens to be the pseudo-leader, the one with the most beautiful singing voice and the pretty boy of the group. Girls might want to throw their undies at him (hehe, I won’t do it don’t worry). That’s how pretty or handsome he is. Another thing, I like boys who don’t cry in public. (‘cause I don’t too.)

THE MOST IMPORTANT OF THEM ALL (though that’s not ALL of them, I’m trying to remember my other crushes, but this guy is the most important, okay?!)

Jackie Chan

He is my most loved, most adored, most admired, most idolized, most crush of them all!

Why? Because of all the movies he’d made (and his characters in them), his “The Moves”, his bubbly personality and his as himself (if you’re a fan, you’ll know what I’m blabbering about).

He’s my all-time idol. And I would love to be his daughter, or if I only happen to be older, his wife. (hehehe) That’s how much I adore him. *puppy eyes*

There goes my list, it’s not yet finished, mind you. I forgot some of my crushes’ name but I’m trying to remember okay?

So what’s the point of this whining? Nada. Zip. None.

Oh well, there is, actually. I just wanna say that why is it that there are so many prospect Mr. Soulmate in this world but all of them happens to be a made up character, an actor from somewhere out there, totally out of my reach, someone way, way, waaaayyyy older than me, and someone I’ll never ever really have?

Why? Why?

And then, I happen to always stumble upon books telling about guys who were soooo good you just wished they were yours. *sigh*