Just when I was literally looking for Death

I was feeling really down about a couple of hours ago because of an exam (I think I failed it) which I crammed for. It is my fault, I know it, since I did not prepare (blah, blah, blah). And I can't help banging my head on the girl's CR door, blaming myself bigtime. Plus wishing I'm dead, of course.

Moreover, I really hated the fact that my old competitive self is resurfacing just when I was feeling like the whole world's crushing down on me! I'm better off with my new happy-go-lucky self, mind you.

Back to the story, I got out, skipping 2 more of my classes, then I rode the first jeep I saw and paid for the fare of the first place that comes in my mind - Quiapo. The ride started with my brain whirling with stupid How-I-wish-I'm-dead thoughts. It was a fairly quiet ride which made my brooding sort-of emotional. (It also made me remember the time I cried my eyes out in 2nd year highschool because of my almost failing marks during first grading in Biology, which I absolutely hate then.)Anyway, the ride was kind of bumpy and due to the heat of the sun and the other passengers sitting beside, crushing me with their BIG bodies, I feel like puking.
I arrived safe and sound in Quiapo, and that made me half mad since I was hoping that my bad-girl attitude would be punished through an accident. I walked trying to keep my thoughts, my I-wanna-die-right-here-right-now wishes, as I walk past the Quiapo church. Then crossed the underground pass to the other side to go home.

I rode another jeep and returned to my brooding, after about 20 minutes or so of being stuck in traffic, I heard this song, as we were passing a pet shop: "If your mind keeps thinking you’ve had enough but the heart keeps telling don’t give up."

I suddenly looked up, thinking, 'What a coincidence, just when I was literally looking for Death out on the streets.'